Self-Medication

Last december i quit smoking cause i knew i would probably be tested when i got a job. Fast forward to March, still no job, and the cremaster cycle is coming to a local theater, so i decide to reward myself and buy some, i smoke, i see cremaster, it is amazing, beautiful, profound. i loved it. i smoke another week as well, then quit for 2 weeks, or until last thursday. On Thursday i learned that extendicare, one of the two jobs i am in the final running for decided i wasn't the best fit, but they said they had another job opening this week that i would be perfect for, it sounds like bullshit to me, and i still haven't heard. So i decided to quit stressing, go shoot some photo's in the menominee river valley, bring a six pack, and smoke, i had fun and felt great.

Random thoughts over a 7 min period on the only paper i had

Then on my way home i decided to rent Black for xBox, it is one of the best shooting games i have played in quite a long time, basically it's gun-porn for NRA members. Then last weekend i went up to door county with my folks, we bummed around taking photo's, hiked at Newport State Park, watched movies, drank Leinenkugals Sunset Wheat (it's a new beer that taste's amazing, and my current favorite beer, it's got a very unique taste (i think from coriander), i highly recommend you try some at your earliest convinence), and played golf. Sunday night i went to the WAC(wisconsin athletic club) after we got back from DC to go sweat in the steamroom, then on my way home i decided to smoke because Soprano's was going to be on once i got home, the episode was great, a lot funnier than usual. Then on Monday i had my first game of Ulitmate Frisbee since last fall, it was through a spring league i am in, and i smoked a little before the game cause i ate to much for dinner and my stomach was a little quesy, it felt great to play again, and our team won, but my legs were definately not conditioned enough. After the game my legs were very sore, and we were meeting at the Palomino, so i decided to self medicate by smoking, it was a good choice.

Thoughts written during medicating after Frisbee on Monday